Monday, April 6, 2009

Um, study break for thought-spaz?


Just now I poured some Doctor Pepper down into a blue blue cup.

It foamed and bubbled and I was surprised— I hadn’t expected such a reaction.

I saw the foam rising towards me and realized—here it comes.
I was filled with a little fear just then, knowing that I must act.
I was past the point of preventing overflow…

But could I act in this next short moment—to control where it landed?


“Its Doctor Pepper,” I said to myself. “Chill.”

The urgency of the moment had overtaken me in the strangest way.

And I realized: that this feeling has taken custody of me many times before.
There is so much in me that can never be contained.

I am a child of the sudden overflow.

Where should I let it fall?


And now… back to my paper.

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So I'm back. Have I ever told ya'll that I love my major? Because it's my soul. It will take me hours to write this paper because I'm so into the novel I'm writing about.
Words. Are. Rich.
Here's somethin:
"Since our extraordinary conversation I have thought of nothing else. ... I feel, I know with a certainty that cannot be the result of folly or misapprehension, that you and I must speak again-- " A letter from Randolph Henry Ash to Miss Christabelle LaMotte.

WHAT IF PEOPLE STILL WROTE LETTERS THIS WAY? WITH FEARLESS HONESTY AND A SENSE OF HUMAN URGENCY FOR ONE ANOTHER? WHAT DO WE DO WHEN WE FEEL DRAWN TO SOMEONE THIS WAY TODAY? WE FRIEND THEM ON FACEBOOK, SEND A PASSIVE TEXT. WHAT WOULD HAPPEN, IF WE ALL BECAME GENUINE PEOPLE?

GAH I love literature.
I feel it in the nighttime here. I am bursting from who I was... from the girl I was just today-- into someone else. Did you see me tonight at FHE? Because I'm not even her anymore.
I sprint to keep up with myself.

2 comments:

Que Buen Chica! said...

You keep right on sprinting! It sounds so healthy and totally incredible.

Que Buen Chica! said...

While youre at it - keep on OVERFLOWING as well - its one of the parts of you that everybody LOVES.

When you were barely two - you were speaking volumns - and in the back seat one day you were chattering away LOUDLY OVERFLOWING and I asked you to stop talking!Remember what you said? I've told you this story a million times and so has your grandmother (she was there).

You said, "But I have SO MUCH to SAY!"
(Ain't that the truth!)