Hey look I'm still here!

Today I'm in the LRC.

I cannot rent headphones because my student card is barred.

Yes, "BARRED"

"Look," the nice girl behind the desk turns her computer screen towards me and says.

"See? It says you're barred. All I can do is click okay."

I must have given her the  
"Seriously? 
Can't you just jack me some headphones so I can listen to sweet jams 
while I write 50 papers?" look.

Oops.

That look came after this spaz of conciousness that came streamin out my little mouth...

Well I don't owe any tuition (thank goodness), 
and I haven't checked out any books, 
and I don't think it's that parking ticket from last semester 
and could Wells Fargo maybe have translated their overdrafty hatred for me 
into an LRC computer?

I stop. She looks concerned.

After assuring her that everything will be okay, I go quietly to my computer.

No sweet jams for me today. I'm barred ya'll.

Maybe its because I won't shut up and get married?

Joke. Relax. It was a joke.

So yesterday was "I trust myself not to mess up my life day."

Today is "This is gonna be nuts so you best be happy and like it day."

So far I'm doin a great job.
With 3 papers and various grown-up appointments ahead of me today,
not to mention all the heavier emotional spaceships spinnin around me,
I'm laughin it up on this blog.
Way to go! What an adult I am!

You know what, I just love stuff.

I do.

I'm always appalled at where my life is.
Daily I spaz about who I am and who I want to be.
But I just love things and I'm excited about that.

That's all I want to say.

Except to tell you this secret:

I never sing as loud or with as much conviction as I do when I'm drivin alone in Roger Clarence.
Here are some songs that keep me movin forward.
I'm posting them by the line I sing the hardest. CLick this mess.

My song is love. My song is love unknown...

I miss winter just because I miss when I knew you best.

And have enough kids to make a band like Joe and Catherine, yeahhhh.

Turn off the car, breathe the air, let's stay here.

Now I may have faith, to make mountains fall.

Then one day: you'll go away. But I will too. Until then, my darling friend well I will hold...

yes I will hold onto you.

Sing out yeah, Everything's not lost.